I'm not what I've done,
I'm what I've overcome

- Fireflight

I wish I knew all the answers,
but that would be cheating!

There are some memories
Even time cannot erase
As hard as we might try
The past will always be there waiting for us
with the pain
But I'll save myself some heartache & shift my focus on what lies ahead
And let the pain entertain itself for awhile

We try and try and try and try

but sometimes it's not enough 

sometimes we fail

but at least we can say we tried

This week has been pretty rough
My words cannot explain to the fullest extent
But in hardships I will have faith and in doubt I will trust & love
& know who I am in Jesus Christ

My imagination plays up all of these possible honest, real conversations
But why is it so hard to make them a reality?

forgive me for the ranting,
but why do I feel more mature than my parents sometimes?

why do people do things,
even when they know it's bad for them?..

Remember the Times

Remember the times
When you felt like no one understood you
Remember the times when you felt like you didn't belong
The times you weren't really sure who the hell you were
The times when your heart felt like an empty hole
The times when you hurt like there was no tomorrow
Those awkward adolescent times
Don't forget what it was like
Because one day you'll grow old
And all of those pains will become faded memories
But those pains are what remind you
That sometimes everyone feels a little misunderstood.

Living Louder

One of my favorite songs of all time<3
by the Cab
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXLLZ3jBx5M

LIVING LOUDER

If today's the day I die
Lay me down under the lights
Let me fall in love
Let me save a life
And let me lose my voice
Singing all my favorite songs
Let me stare up at the stars
'Cause it's where we all belong
My heart like a firework in my chest
My only regret is having regrets
Travelled the world
I loved every step
And all I know is
No one, no one lives forever
We will be remembered
For what we do right now

And baby I'm living louder
And dreaming longer, tonight
(We're living louder, we're living louder)
And baby I'm fighting harder
And loving stronger tonight
(We're loving stronger, we're loving stronger)

'Cause we're all just kids
Who grew up way too fast
Yeah the good die young
But the great will always last
We're growing older
But we're all soldiers tonight
If today's the day I go
Gonna drink with all my friends
Gonna laugh until we cry
As we talk and reminisce

And let me kiss a stranger
And rob the local bank
Let me become real rich
So I can give it all away

'Cause no one, no one lives forever
But we will be remembered
For what we do right now

And baby I'm living louder
And dreaming longer, tonight
(We're living louder, we're living louder)
And baby I'm fighting harder
And loving stronger tonight
(We're loving stronger, we're loving stronger)
'Cause we're all just kids
Who grew up way too fast
Yeah the good die young
But the great will always last

We're growing older
But we're all soldiers tonight

When you've got your breath inside your head
Every day's a second chance
If I wake up with a beating heart
Will I stand or will I fall?

I'm living louder
Dreaming longer tonight
Baby I'm fighting harder
And loving stronger tonight

And baby I'm living louder
And dreaming longer tonight
(We're living louder, we're living louder)
And baby I'm fighting harder
And loving stronger tonight
(We're loving stronger, we're loving stronger)

'Cause we're all just kids
Who grew up way too fast
Yeah the good die young
But the great will always last
We're growing older
But we're all soldiers tonight

Why do I feel like doing absolutely nothing these days?

"Why do I, and everyone I love, pick people who treat us like we're nothing?"

"We accept the love we think we deserve."

- Perks of Being a Wallflower

But we deserve so much more

I don't want to be so caught up in life
that I don't experience it

A Time and a Season

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

The Thoughts of a Frustrated Mind

Don't people understand that I get tired of bullshit too?
And can't you see it's damn frustrating
You get angry when I'm only trying to help you
Why do I even try? I know it's cause deep down I love you
But I guess that slips your mind
And you forget attacking is not what I mean to do
I realize you can't please everyone
So I'm going to let my own frustration slide
Hopefully in the morning we'll have the composure to work it out
And let the internal conflict subside

Note To Self

Never let other's words discourage you
But more importantly,
Never let your own words discourage you

Today's HeartPangs

I make mistakes
I make an ass out of myself
I jump to conclusions
I let my emotions get the best of me
& yes, sometimes I just don't make any sense
I'm no where near perfect
But I'm trying
Trust me, I'm trying
& doing the best I can to learn
But along the way
Please remember that I'm only human

Everyone needs a place for their thoughts
    their crazy, deep, ridiculous, whirlwind, beautiful, poetic, thought-provoking thoughts
Everyone needs a place to clear their head
    their overwhelmed & overworked head
But most of all, everyone needs a place for their heart
    their weary, broken, seeking, longing, loving heart